Alice in Wonderland

Hi! How have you been doing?

It’s been a long time since my last update. I have been very very busy since mid May. That was when I undertook two freelance jobs at one time in Singapore - one has to be completed within a month’s time, the other within 2 months’ time. Call me greedy, but the sake of survival during this economy downturn, I had to do this no matter how tough it would be. I couldn’t just sit there and wait for someone to call me to go for an interview (at one peak of the time, I felt I was so priceless, unworthy, etc). Therefore, I decided that I wanted to do something while waiting. Some more the freelance job offers were quite attractive … I would be a fool if I rejected them!

All these actually started end of April 2009 when I was offered the post freelance editor by Healthy Times mag, which at first, I thought it was a full-time permanent post. I felt rather disappointed actually but anyway, I took up the assignment, but then I felt kinda guilty for holding my boss up coz I would still be looking for a full-time permanent job. She was very nice to me (to the least she gave me this opportunity to work in mag publishing and allow me to get a feel of it). But then, after two weeks’ time, I realised this was not what I wanted to do (probably it just clashed with my personality and that I do not possess that required creativity), so I told my boss. She started to look for someone else but was nice enough to let me stay for another 2 weeks’ time to help her out with the articles. I managed to write quite a number of them and if there was no changes to the initial plan, my articles will appear in the upcoming issue 39 of Healthy Times mag in July 2009. It was in Healthy Times that I started to gain back my confidence, bit by bit, partly coz I have met two very nice persons there - one was my boss, the other was the administrator. I really appreciate them for being nice to me and helping me to go through the toughest time in my life.

I continued to jobhunt and I went to numerous interviews (actually not a lot also as compared to when the time is still good). It was through these interviews that I got these two freelance jobs in mid May 2009. One was editing worksheets at Mad4Math (tuition centre), the other was editing challeenging Maths books at SAP (assessment book publisher). At the beginning of the days, I was like rushing between these two places every 4 hours in a day. I could feel the rising stress in me, partly due to the rushing up and down, also to meet the deadlines. After the start of June, I managed to plan so that I just have to stay and work at one place in a day. In fact, these two projects were currently still on-going - I need to finish them by end of June 2009. These two jobs were the reason why I was so busy but at the end of the day, I felt that I contributed something and I got to know more people. I wanna thank Hui Sing and Lee Mei for the great company when I was in SAP. Without you girls, I would sure be stressed to the max! I also wanna thank Chelsea (though I didn’t really get the chance to know you and meet you coz you were on maternity leave) - the article on your cubicle entitled ‘This Too Will Pass’ really inspired me to be strong during this period of time (someday I will put this article up in my blog). It was about teaching people how to face good and bad times, especially during this recession time. You know, actually I really hate it when people asked me this question, “Hey, how’s ur jobhunting?” ”Still looking” - that was my usual answer but actually deep in my heart, I was crying because somehow I made me feel so useless, just that I’m still strong enough to hide that tears away. Anyway, I know that people asked this because they concerned about me. So, no worries, it’s not a big deal…

You must be thinking why I want to make things so difficult for myself by taking up two jobs at a time. Why not just take a break while waiting for that job opportunity? Well, because I know that God is testing me. He has been testing me since early this year when everything just went haywired for me (if you have been catching up mu updates). A friend told me that these happened because God loves me. He gives all these challenges for me to learn and grow. At first I found this hard to be accepted, but after sometime, I knew that what my friend said was true. Thanks, Lindsay, for this great reminder! Because I trust in this, I show God the determination in me. I believe my determination will not only help to build back the tough Alice but will only help me to be a better person. Another friend said all these were not retributions, but I would srill believe these were partly retributions.

Whatever retributions they were, I guess God has announced the winner. My determination and perseverance were not wasted because I have finally got a job offer! I will be reporting my first day at work on 2 July 2009 with JustEducation. It’s a tuition centre but they are not having one but 25 branches throughout Singapore! They are currently expanding in Malaysia as well. I tell you, I would never forget the interview with them - a massive 4 hours, mind you! I have never been to an interview that took so long of the time. I spent 1 and a half hours on filling up some forms, IQ test, EQ test, personality test as well as solving some academic questions. Then, talked for 2 and a half hours with the interviewers but the good thing was that they were so friendly, especially the CEO (it wasn’t like an interview at all!). They shared with me about the company and stuffs. I actually didn’t dare to put much hope on this job as I believed I would definitely get a zero for the IQ test! Hehe! But anyway, I’m glad that God has answered my prayer by giving me this opportunity. As an Education Operations Executive, I will have the chance to be involved in teaching and operations work apart from being a book editor. Teaching has been something that I wish to get involved in because education is a very firm industry in Singapore, which is less likely to be affected by economy downturn, of coz provided that the company’s business is good.

I remembered someone told me when I was still all upset over the retrenchment. He said, “Sometimes a change may not be a bad thing, it may possibly bring you something fruitful.” Well, what he said seemed true and I’m really thankful to this person who have shared with me so much. His words and advice were more than useful to me (sorry, I can’t reveal who’s dat at the mo but confirm not my ex or potential bf … so dun think any further yeah … he’s more like a teacher, brother and perhaps father).

I also want to thank all my friends who have been there for me during the toughest time in my life, particularly Chee Ling, Lindsay Lim, Lee Mei, Hui Sing, Vivian Lim, Muneerah and Hidayah. I’m sorry if I say or done something wrong to anyone of you because at one point of the time, I was really depressed. But I’m glad that things are finally over now. I guess the recession is not also affecting me but also everyone. So for those of you who is lucky enough to have a job at the moment, please treasure what you have now. Stop those complains because you will never now if you will be the next. The job market is so cold at the moment and it’s not easy to compete with so many jobseekers. If you are an experienced executive who is jobless now and wish to find a job in Singapore, you need to give yourself an average of 6 months for the jobhunting (serious, no kidding!), that is if you are a Singaporean or Singapore PR.

From this moment on, my vision is to forget the past and look for a brighter tomorrow. Since God has given me the path, I must treasure this and make the best out of it. I’ve learnt the greatest lesson from this and I will not let the same thing repeats again in my life. Same to you - please be positive during this bad times.