Alice in Wonderland

I am so thankful to all who had made 22 April 2009 a special day for me. Not mainly because it was my birthday, but it was more than just a joy for me when I’ve finally cleared up that stupid misunderstanding with my best friend.

If you have sent me a birthday greeting via sms, Facebook or Friendster, thank you very much. You really made me feel remembered, which I feel that I’ve somehow long lost … Not sure why, maybe because of the bad experience and I had started to feel that loyalty is not what everyone looks for in a friendship (therefore, they no longer care of when is my birthday). Well, I’m glad you do your part and I am very happy to know that you care. Thanks again to you!:)

I’m also happy because I’ve finally gained back my confidence after started working part-time for Healthy Times mag last week. Now I’m still waiting for the result and if it really turns out to be what I’m hoping for, I will let you know the story. Stay tune, yeah! I guess the confidence appears naturally because it’s like me going back to the working life again (tho’ it’s a part-time as I’m still looking for a full-time one). The best person I met in the Healthy Times office is Lilian Sim, the administrator. I started to like her on the first day of my part-time job. She is very down-to-earth and friendly, yet ambitious - a good career woman model I would say. She’s actually in her 40’s but she’s not like those aunty … There are so much that she can share and it’s just fun talking to her! Really thank her for the company and everything
My 28th birthday certainly had something to do with all these … and yeah, it was certainly a great one for me!

A big thank you to you if you have spent time celebrating my birthday in advance … and especially YOU, my good friend (Lee Mei), who also brought me a birthday cake … It was really a memorable one at Axtivo on 18 April 2009 … :)Thank you very much, I really appreciate that… Also all the nice bithday gifts (THANK YOU PEOPLE!)

I never ever dare to dream that I will have a birthday celebration this year because of what happened lately … But I’m so thankful I could still celebrate it with my good friends, who never fail to remember my birthday! For those who have promised to celebrate later, yeah, I will be looking forward for that (yay!) Really thank you for remembering me …. your thoughts really made my day!

For those of you who forgets, well, i dunno what to say to you all … But I really dun mind it …

Just wanna wish myself a Happy Birthday … Stay pretty, positive and strong always! and must also love myself more than anyone else

It was such a disappointment!

The only thing that always make me feel so much of disappointment is when a close friend fails to understand me and in return accuse me for betraying/doing something that I will never possibly do (if you really know me well enough). Worst of all, the person starts talking behind you, influencing everyone who also knows me, thinking that I have really done all those bitchy things! What the heck!

Honestly, I don’t mind if people talking about me at the back … I don’t give it a darm! Whatever they want to say, it’s beyond my control since my world is always democratic and I don’t mind if I am kept in darkness about all these. But what they talk and they still want you to know that they talk and spread these to others. And the person who is doing all these is the one you always regard as a good friend (at least an understanding friend). Wouldn’t it be hurtful? Where is the respect by the way?

Nah, I know I’m not somekind of princess or what and of coz you can choose not to respect me in any way. But why should all these be created? If you are really unhappy anout me, you can just tell me straight that you are disatisfied and expect something better from me. I can certainly understand it if you have talked to me rather than making numerous assumptions, right at the back. What for?? Is this what a friend is for? For backstab? Or something for an interesting object/fun topic to discuss or whatever? I tell you, I don’t give it a darm!

For me, a friend (especially close one) is supposed to be someone supportive. I’m not saying that you must agree to everything that I say or suggest. You have the right to correct me, but if I’ve already apologised for whatever mistakes that I have done and you said that it’s ok, I will assume that you understand and have accepted my apology. What’s the point accepting my apology but start talking behind my back?? Is this what a friend is for? This is really ridiculous!

As you are reading this, I hope you can feel the pain in my heart. Not because you have betray my feelings, but you have killed the trust that I have on you as a good friend. I am really really upset because I never thought you would do this to me.

To others who read this, feel free to share your thoughts with me coz I really want to know whether me or her is wrong. Maybe I shouldn’t be trusting anyone from now on … I have already had enough!