Only God knows why …
I was so regret … regret of trusting my boss too much! I ever thought he would betray me in such a way … but after all he didn’t have a choice since business is really bad … And now I have to find a new job (sigh!)
Perhaps this is also a retribution to me for hating my ex … and hating some of my friends … God has always ask us to just forgive and forget … But the devil side of me has really brought me trouble this time … I was really speechless … Deep inside, i know that God is trying to make things more difficult to me so that I can learn to overcome these with a peaceful mind instead … I kow I definitely can’t fight the God … yes, no doubt that I’ve defeated …
I’ve seek forgiveness from the person I hated the most recently - who else but my ex … Surprisingly he had never hated me for my bad behaviour … and we have become friends once again because of his understanding and forgiveness, which has really given me a peace of mind to face this challenge in front of me … It’s not that I’m scared that God will punish me further if I didn’t do this … Well, I can always choose to commit suicide, but I didn’t coz I know I’ve really defeated … I cannot be so selfish to leave everything behind for my siblings to settle … Instead I’ve to admit my mistakes and now the only thing that I can do is face all these bravely and positively … and consequently learn from this mistake …
In case you are wondering, I’ve deleted all the posts that I’ve written in this year … Those were nothing but craps (full of moans of dissatisfaction) … I couldn’t keep them aymore … I want a new start for year 2009 for now … the only thing that I really regret is trusting my previous boss too much …
I will defiitely try my best to build a better start … I want to show my previous boss that he had made a great mistake ad that I can survive better without him …
For all my friends who care, thanks so much! I know some of you have stayed rather late at night to talk to me on MSN …. I really appreciate that … and I’m thankful for all your forgiveness … true from my heart.
Do wish me all the best! 
